I’ve been on a little bit of a kick to sort some things out in my suite/life. I’m trying to decide whether or not I need this anymore, jot down simple tasks that I need to do, large ones, and perhaps some sort of goals. It’s odd because I already do this for my finances on a daily basis, but for everything else, I don’t. Not really at all. I’m aware of a few things I need to get done but not in such of scale to really do anything, (Gym, teeth, house).
I lack in desire to really do anything with my life, which is a shame. Everyone should have a drive in life and currently I can’t find what I want to do. I almost want to be laid off from work so I can kick-start myself into something anew. Then I think about what hinders me and holds me back. If I didn’t accumulate credit card debt, if I didn’t buy a new car and if I never broke up with Alana. Then I peer into the little things, the commodities of my life, the ones I use everyday and want to keep and the ones I blew my money shamelessly on and never use. I’m going to compile a short (or long) list of things I need to clarify in my life and act accordingly on.
– Super Nintendo, Wii, Genesis, Playstation, NES.
I bought the Wii new from Walmart and played it maybe a dozen times with the current gal, but other than that I haven’t touched it, I don’t think its been on for at least a month, that’s at least $350 (Wii, super mario bros wii, controller). The others I’ve purchased off Kijiji or from King of Trade. Easily another $500 for everything else I’ve got that I don’t play/use.
– 2 guitars, one electric, one acoustic.
Have you every heard of love stories that involve the guy getting the girl because he wrote her that lovely song and played it for her? I wanted to be that guy. I shamelessly bought one of both at XS Cargo a few years back, and was eager to learn with then girlfriend (big boobs). We broke up shortly afterwards and the desire died with it. I’ll probably keep the acoustic, but I’m sure I’ll pawn off the electric, should round-up about $50. (spent about $150).
Oh god I have about a thousand of these, I even made my own poker table at one point. I’ll post these damn things on Kijiji or something, spent about $200 on this shit.
I desperately need to seek a dentist/denturist to fix my pearlees. I’m having a hard time finding a dentist that will do what I want them to do, pull them all, although the real truth is the fact that I haven’t started really looking.
I’ve already got a head start here. It’s rather simple to complete this one, I already have a great eye doctor in town and it is as simple as picking up the phone and making an appointment with them. Although I have to clear it through work to get new safety glasses as well so that my exam will be covered. I forgot the process since its been a few years.
– The Gym
I really need to get back into training full time and taking care of my body more. I’ve noticed I’m getting a little bit pudgy and it is kind of making me a bit ill. The only draw back in which I don’t really want to give into is the fact that the gym is another payment. Another bite of the apple. The other problem is that the gym I’d like to (re)join is the same in which an incredible asshole goes to frequently. We’ll see how that pans out.
I think the problem I have with contacting Alana is knowing that my single-hood may come to a halt. I still love her a lot. I just know I’ve wronged her in so many ways contacting her is nearly impossible, but I know I won’t know anything until I try.
I guess most of this is procrastination. I know I’m a procrastinator. I blog irregularly. I put things off regularly. I’m easily unmotivated. I’m lazy. I’m scared and I’m quite stupid. I want to use 2010 as a pivot point, I want to turn the ship around and start fresh and make my life wonderful and worth it to me. Make my time count and make myself enjoy every minute of it and be happy to go wherever it is I may need to go.
I’ll keep you updated.